Friday, February 26, 2010

Commercialized Holiday's are Evil

Let me set the scene: It is Friday night, I am at Safeway. I am determined to get in, get out and to do it with nothing but "healthy" foods. I'm not crazed or anything, but earlier in the evening I succumbed and depressingly put on my "fat jeans." No big deal, some might say, but distrubing to me. Thankfully, they are still a bit too big for me. I had packed these jeans away 3 years ago when I started losing so much weight when I was deathly ill. And I don't use "deathly" lightly-I really felt that bad. This was pre-Celiac diagnoses and I was essentially starving to death, "wasting away," was the oh-so-not-medical-term my doctor used. At that time I ate constantly, there are people that can vouch for and verify that. I really was wasting away, and not by my choice. Like I said, I ate constantly. And when I wasn't eating I was saying I was hungry and thinking about what I was going to eat next. These food-focused thoughts and actions were explained later when it was discovered exactly how much my body needed ANY nourishment at all and the way the body does that is by eating.

Anywho, this week my stomach has been particularly bothering me and for the life of me I don't know why. I haven't eaten any glutens. Then, much to my semi-elation, I realized this evening, as I was feeling fat and frumpy and putting on those oh-so dreaded fat jeans that maybe it isn't that I've gained back that much weight, weight gain, yes, that much-maybe not. I think it is my poor bloated belly. No, REALLY! I haven't really felt well, or right all week. The one change?! I haven't been eating my morning dose of yogurt with those good-for-your-belly probiotics. Could that really be the answer to my distended stomach, my feeling of illness and the ened for those fat jeans? Sally, a friend from work would be elated to hear those words come out of my mouth and she preaches probiotic supplements. Maybe she has a really good point.

Off to the grocery store I go. I was going to stock up on yogurt. I'm not so crazed that I will go probiotic shopping, but if, after a few days eating my yogurt again I feel better and more 'normal'- maybe then I will consider going gang busters with the probiotics.

Now, back to the original point of this post. Commercialized holiday's are evil. While I was minding my own picking-out-my-fruits and vegetables business I look up to see stacks and stacks of candy, Easter candy. In my mind I begin to think, "wasn't Valentine candy just out," yes, and before then "wasn't all the Chistmas candy and junk food out," yes. And it goes on, all the way back to October, 5 months ago, and the beginning of candy/junk food holiday overload. Yuck. Sort of makes my stomach ache right now. And never mind I consumed about my weight in M&M minis this past weekend, and then we had a lovely, but troubled afternoon at work that included a table full of mostly sugar-filled junk food and a chocolate fountain, and I have scheduled and followed through with lunch/dinner dates with many friends that I am trying to get caught up with. It all spells no-good for me. Oh my goodness. I was proud that I steered very clear of the danger zone and made it out and home safely with a bag full of good-for-me foods tonight. I think I need to have one of those 'body detox programs' or something, and it better be something good.

In the meantime, I think I will go for a walk since the rain has stopped and I need to get my new shoes broken in for all the walking I'll be doing in just over a month when I venture to the other side of the country to see my brother, who bless him, is excited when he gains weight.

Tata for now.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Download Complete

I finally did a download of the pictures on my camera. Some of them were over a month old...oops.

Enjoy...

This last week I took a group of my folks on an outing to the Columbia Gorge Interpretive Center in Stevenson, WA. The drive was absolutely amazing!

Bridge of the Gods (crossing from the Oregon side to the Washington side of the Columbia River)



I often forget about going into the Gorge when I feel like going for a drive. With these views, I need to remedy that.




Ezme would like to wish you a Happy Spring!





Myles would like to remind you that phone books are a wonderful thing...you can look all kinds of things up in them, or what is more fun is tearing them apart, page by page by page!


Ezme went to work with me last week and modeled what many of us may like to do on a long day at work: the nap. Yes, she is right on top of my paperwork and I can just see over her to the computer monitor.


The sunrises have been phenomenal as of late.



I got myself in trouble a couple of years ago at work. I started decorating these doors for the specific holiday/event we were celebrating. Now I am in deep. It is nice to have my creative side come out occassionally. This was my Valentine Month decoration.




At work we have sort of adopted a school for homeless kids. We supplied the Valentines for them and the goodies for their parties this year. This was my trunk before we delivered the goodies.

When I came out of church this morning the sun was shining. It was beautiful. This was a tree that had water droplets and I couldn't pass it without taking a picture. It was gorgeous.

How many pictures do you have on your camera that you need to download? (My count was 225, though some of them were duplicates. Time to delete!)

Friday, February 12, 2010

Writer's Block

As established earlier, I love words, so again I go to the dictionary, well, the next best thing: Wikipedia:

"Writer's block is a condition, associated with writing as a profession, in
which an author loses the ability to produce new work. The condition varies
widely in intensity. It can be trivial, a temporary difficulty in dealing
with the task in hand. At the other extreme, some "blocked" writers have
been unable to work for years on end, and some have even abandoned their
careers."

Now, I am the the furthest thing from a professional writer, so maybe I should title this post as "Blog Block." I think, 'oh I could blog about that', or 'if I was to blog about this I would say this.' I could blog about many things, or at least 3 things: 1) there is a school I pass daily and their marquee states at this time that there is an event called Mandatory Fun...I want to know how they get that to happen in a school! :) 2) Ezme is on a roll right now. She has strewn a multitude of tissue paper about the living room and has discovered a secret to me stash of batteriesthat she has also removed from their respective location and places throughout the apartment; 3) I could reflect, as the 2010 Winter Olympics begin, on my trip to Vancouver and Whistler. That trip is now approaching a passing of 5 1/2 years ago and other Olympic experiences that I have had.

Maybe, just maybe I'll touch on each thing. Warning though: this is uninspired and now that I have warned you I don't take responsibility for what you continue to read.

1) Mandatory Fun: yes, I need to find out more about that. Cracks me up each morning as I drive by.

2) Ezme has always been, or at least in the time I've had her; an odd cat. She lives playing with metal, plastic, weird things. She loves hard cardies in the wrapper--for the crinkly wrapper, not the sugar. She has carried metal rods and writing utensils around, bringing each of those to bed with me while I sleep. Right now she has a fascination with batteries. Must mean I really need to address my closet, where it looks as though a tornado has been spinning around.

3) Right before I began my Senior year in college I went camping with Holly and Leonard, someone she was working with at the time. We had decided we wanted to camp in Canada. I had never been to Canada. I was excited to leave the country. We left Portland early in the morning, it was going to be a long drive. We, or I should say I, barely got through the border...something about an alert out for my arrest. I'd been skirting the authorities since I was in Wyoming...SO KIDDING! Did I have you there for a moment, even a small one?! Oh, goodness. Anyway, we got to Vancouver BC and decided to have a stop off to walk around. We needed to take a break from sitting in the car--it had been a long drive, even with the break at the border.

Vancouver was a beautiful city. I was mesmerized by the buildings, the water, the mountains. All seemed to be in harmony with the others. Holly and I joked that it would be funny if one of us had a house in Vancouver BC and one of us had a house in Vancouver WA. Not all that obscure, at the time anyways. Unlikely now. Though I'd go back in a heartbeat to that seemingly wonderful city.

We stopped at a gelato shop, where I had the best gelato, the gelato that I shall compare all other gelatos to: the French Kiss. My two favorite things combined: hazelnuts and chocolate. I have tried many other hazelnut/chocolate gelato combos and none compare. We gathered up our gumption to get back in the car and navigate the oh-so-confusing roadways of this big Canadian city, with their metric mileage system and speed limits. As we were driving we kept running into road construction. We couldn't figure out what they were doing. It later occurred to us that they were widening this two lane highway into a four lane highway to accomodate for the increase in traffic between Vancouver and Whistler when the Olympics arrived. At that time (August 2004), 2010 seemed like a LONG ways off. How quickly it has approached.

We made it to Squamish. Squamish-that is a fun thing to say...kind of like sqweemish, but not quite. This seemed to be a sleepy, lazy sort of town. A nice feel. We stopped for grocery supplies. It was weird to pay in a different currency. It felt funny going grocery shopping in another country. We had stocked the car with non-perishables before leaving the U.S. We then added our perishables to it. We had decided on a yummy menu for our time in the great Canadian 'wilderness.' Spaghetti, eggs, sausage, hashbrowns, burgers. I can't remember what else. People looked at us like we were crazy when we later told them we had spaghetti while camping. It was delicious though.

It was a dry year, fires were forbidden-that equated to no smores, nor any hot dogs roasted over the fire. No crackling wood sounds as we sat around the fire. No, camp lanterns don't, under normal circumstances, provide that crackling sound or the campfire smell. We would have a grand time, nonetheless. We headed north to the Paradise Valley Campground located midway between Squamish and Whistler. It was run by a husband and wife and was only in its second season. It was beautiful in all its rusticness. They did have the wonderful luxury of a restroom and a little 'general store.' They were a sweet and amicable couple, offering any information we may be seeking.

There was a beautiful river that ran nearby, we ventured over to see it. It was a gorgeous color. We ventured up to Whistler--beautiful place. Absolutely beautiful. I decided on that day that I would return someday and curl-up in a big chair by the fireplace in one of the over-priced lodge appearing hotels. Someday, I will. I could have spent more time in this quaint area. Being August and all, of course there were no ski lifts/runs open, but this rugged terrain doubled as biking and hiking trails in the less snow filled seasons. The mountains were breathtaking. I grew up in the U.S. Rockies, which I must say, hold no comparison to the Canadian Rockies. None. There was construction going on in Whistler, again in preparation for the Olympic games that are now upon us. It will be interesting to see the changes when I do make it up that far north again.

That trip was amazing to me. We sat by the unfireside and gazed at stars. I grew up in a state with few lights from large cities and saw a lot of stars in my time. I spent nights on a deck of a ship in the middle of an ocean. And I can't remember seeing stars like I saw in Canada. The Australian accents of the people working at Whistler were fun. The maple syrup I bought and brought home was fabulous. The line to get back into the U.S. was long, the people waiting were getting out of their cars and playing in the grass that was roadside. We had the windows down and were singing (and motioning--in the car and spilling out the car windows) to the YMCA song. People around us proabably thought we were nuts. They probably were glad to send us back to our home country. By the way, getting back into the country was easier than getting out. That was another time, before passports were required in order to cross the U.S./Canada border. The drive back to Portland seemed like an eternity. I was never so happy for a shower as when I got one after arriving back to campus. I should look for the pictures. Yes, that would be good.

That was a fun trip. Yes, I could go back, and I'd even pass on the comfy chair by the fire in the lodge-like setting for another few nights of sleeping on the ground in a campground just outside of Squamish BC. Right now, at this age anyway. Give me a few years and I may not even consider getting anywhere near a sleeping bag on the ground no matter where I would be camping. I hope that is a ways off!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Today, I am content/happy.

content (adjective)-satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting more or anything else.

happy (adjective)-characterized by or indicative of pleasure, contentment, or joy.
(dictionary.com)
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When I started this blog I had decide whether I wanted to use the word content or the word happy...so I went to the dictionary. I love dictionaries. I love words. Therefore, I love dictionaries. I also love thesaurus'. I digress. So sorry.

I have decided that I will say I am content. Yes, circle that one. I am more content with that word. (heehee). Especially considering that "content" is used to define happy. In my brain I would assign the word happy to an event. I would be happy about a special day, a big milestone. I am content when there are no big milestones, no particular events, no out-of-the-ordinary special days, as everyday is special in its own way. No, nothing like that. I am just content. Content is a grand way to be. I want nothing more, I want nothing less, I want to enjoy life; right where I am, right at this moment.

Right at this moment I am sitting in the sun, with my cat in my lap (sorta hard to type). I am listening to good, soulful music. I have returned from my morning worship and sermon at church and a glorious dinner of corned beef and cabbage is simmering on the stove. The dishes are all done, the groceries put away.

Right at this moment I am remembering the giggles from last night as I blew on a little ones cheek, making funny noises; all while enjoying the company of a dear friend talking "lists of thing to do," baking/frosting sugar cookies, and just enjoying the time together.

Right at this moment I am reveling in the thought that my storage unit is super clean after being emptied, swept and re-organized. I am anticipating going on a walk, wondering what new signs of spring I will be seeing.

Right at this moment I am anticipating the week ahead, full of time with friends, time alone, time; while reflecting on times past with friends and family and those who are dear to me.

Yes, right now I am content. I smile a sly smile just because. May these moments of contentment remain.

Monday, February 1, 2010

January Poem of the Month

Ring Out The Old, Ring In The New
by Alfred Tennyson, 1850

Ring out the old, ring in the new,
Ring, happy bells, across the snow;
The year is going, let him go;
Ring out the false, ring in the true.

Ring out, wild bells, to the wild sky,
The flying cloud, the frosty light:
The year is dying in the night;
Ring out, wild bells, and let him die.

Ring out the grief that saps the mind,
For those that here we see no more;
Ring out the feud of rich and poor,
Ring in redress to all mankind.

Ring out false pride in place and blood,
The civic slander and the spite;
Ring in the love of truth and right,
Ring in the common love of good.

Ring out a slowly dying cause,
And ancient forms of party strife,
Ring in the nobler modes of life,
With sweet manners, purer laws.

Ring out old shapes of foul disease;
Ring out the narrowing lust of gold;
Ring out the thousand wars of old,
Ring in the thousand years of peace.

Ring in the valiant man and free,
The larger heart, the kindlier hand;
Ring out the darkness of the land,
Ring in the Christ that is to be.